Where did that last 6 weeks go? I haven’t been on here for ages.

Well, it is a New Year and I am determined to have a new start…. I am sitting at my laptop looking out on to more rain and greyness, feeling slightly unwell with a croaky, sore throat and a very annoying cough….the motivation is slowly coming back though as I am doing study today, I have decided!

I have a few jobs to finish off here in the UK before I leave, so I have done the organised thing and written a “to do list”. I’ll forget what I’m supposed to be doing otherwise, I am a bit ditzy you know?!!!

I’ve got this week sorted for who I’m catching up with and what jobs will be completed, next week I’ll take as it comes and I’ll probably book a flight. I have moments when I feel certain I know what I’m doing and what feels right, then the next minute I’ll feel like I’m still not sure where to go and how long to stay and what to do etc. etc.

A close friend, who I’ve known for years, reminded me just the other day that I don’t need to stress about settling down or having roots….I can go anywhere and do anything as I am in a really lucky position of not being tied to anything or anyone. I also got some nice advice from my Dad. I thought about it all and realised I’m putting deadlines on things and pressure on myself, when really I don’t need to. I do miss seeing the sunshine though and know the sooner I get back to that I’ll be thinking clearer. I just need to chill….see where my path leads me perhaps!